structuraldefect | canon move! [permatext]

They just don't understand, sometimes, do they?

Right.

You have to think of what you'd like to change, and then try to change it. It won't happen overnight. It may not even happen at all. But like most things, we get better with practice. Start with something small. Perhaps be more kind to people if you haven't been, or more forgiving if you've been holding a grudge, or more assertive if you've been a pushover. Then we make entirely different mistakes than the ones before.

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NO, THEY DON'T.
THEY'D RATHER SIT ON THEIR EVER EXPANDING NUB INSTEAD OF EXERCISING THE BRAIN THAT THEIR CREATORS, EXISTENT OR OTHERWISE, HAVE GIVEN THEM.
THOUGH THAT SEEMS TO BE PRETTY PAR FOR THE COURSE IN ANY SETTING, NOT JUST HERE.

WHAT IF WE DON'T KNOW WHAT ABOUT OURSELVES THAT WE WANT TO CHANGE?

They say ignorance is bliss.

Since you seem to be thinking in terms of mistakes, maybe starting from one of them would be a place to start. What did you do that lead up to it? Is it something that you think you can change? Or was it something seemingly out of your hands?

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I SAY IGNORANCE WILL EVENTUALLY GET YOU KILLED.

THAT'S KIND OF THE PROBLEM OF PROBLEMS RIGHT THERE.
*I* BELIEVE THAT I COULD HAVE DONE SHIT DIFFERENTLY
BUT THEN THERE'S PROOF THAT IF I DID, THEN MAYBE WE'D ALL BE DEAD.
RIGHT NOW I'M JUST KIND OF FUCKING AT A LOSS BECAUSE I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT THE TROLL THAT I AM ISN'T REALLY THE TROLL I WANT TO BE.

Most things will.

I see. It sounds as if the strings of fate were pulling for this one. If that's true, then there's nothing you could've done differently to change it. Perhaps the key for you to not make future mistakes is to let go of the past ones.

WHICH MAY OR MAY NOT BE A GOOD THING IN MY UNIVERSE.
DEATH HAS KIND OF A DIFFERENT END THAN WHAT MOST WORLDS ASSOCIATED WITH THE COMMUNITY ARE LEAD TO BELIEVE.
AT LEAST HERE IT DOES.

THE THING IS, I DON'T KNOW *HOW* TO LET GO OF THIS NEVER ENDING SHIT PILE OF MISTAKES.
MAYBE THEY DON'T MATTER IN THE GRAND SCHEME OF THINGS, BUT THEY REALLY MATTER TO ME.
THE WORST PART IS, NO ONE ON THIS METEOR WANTS TO LISTEN TO ME RAMBLE ABOUT IT AND MY MOIRAIL IS KIND OF MIA HALF OF THE TIME.

Moirail?

You don't have to all at once, and this mistake may be too big to be taken back. But if you start trying to let go of the small ones, it makes it easier to forgive the big ones. And I suppose if no one's willing to listen, find someone who is.

MOIRAILS FOR WE TROLLS ARE AKIN TO PLATONIC SOUL MATES FOR HUMANS.
WE SEE THEM AS A SPECIFIC TYPE OF ROMANCE, MEANT FOR MEDIATION PURPOSES.
IN OTHER WORDS, MOIRAILS ARE SUPPOSED TO CARRY EACH OTHERS' BURDENS AND KEEP ONE ANOTHER ON A STRAIGHT AND NARROW PATH.
MY MOIRAIL HAS A FEW IDIOSYNCRASIES THAT, IF LEFT UNCHECKED, COULD POTENTIALLY MEAN THE ANNIHILATION OF THE REMAINDER OF OUR KIND.

NOW I'M GOING TO ASK YOU TO DEFINE SMALL, BECAUSE ALL OF THE SMALL SHIT CAN LEAD UP TO THE BIG THINGS, SO AREN'T THEY REALLY JUST AS IMPORTANT?

Sounds pretty serious, then.

In this case, easily fixable. Mistakes that if someone else made, you'd forgive them of it relatively quickly. But, yes, in general, something small means just as much as something larger.

QUADRANTS ARE ALWAYS SERIOUS BUSINESS FOR TROLLS.

WHAT ABOUT YOU ANYWAY.
WHY ARE YOU ASKING THIS SORT OF QUESTION IF YOU'RE ABLE TO ANSWER RELATED QUESTIONS?

What would the other three be? I'm assuming one translates into romantic love?

I wanted to hear what other people thought. It seems to be a rich topic for discussion, apparently.

ALL OF THEM ARE ROMANTIC IN NATURE.
FOR HUMANS, UNLESS YOU ARE SOMETHING OTHER THAN THAT THEN OOPS, LOVE HAS DIFFERENT MEANINGS
HOWEVER YOU GUYS ONLY HAVE ONE TYPE OF LOVE THAT SEEMS TO CORRELATE TO ROMANCE.
THAT'S NOT EXACTLY THE CASE WITH US.
OUR ROMANCES ARE DEFINED BY VARYING DEGREES OF HATE AND WHAT YOU WOULD TRADITIONALLY THINK OF AS "LOVE."
I COULD GO ON ABOUT THIS TOPIC, BUT ABOUT NINETY PERCENT OF THE TIME, NO ONE GIVES A DAMN.
IT'S A SHAME, REALLY.
QUADRANTS ARE BEAUTIFUL THINGS.

Hate? Over here, it tends to be thought that the two should be opposites.

THAT'S BECAUSE MOST OF THE TIME HUMANS ARE TOO PRIMITIVE TO EVEN UNDERSTAND THEMSELVES.
PASSION IS PASSION JUST LIKE LUST IS LUST.
YOU CAN PASSIONATELY "LOVE" SOMEONE JUST AS MUCH AS YOU CAN HATE SOMEONE WITH JUST AS MUCH FERVOR.
OF COURSE OUR HATE-ORIENTED QUADRANT IS MORE OF AN ETERNAL RIVALRY SORT OF THING.
ESSENTIALLY, THOUGH, IT COMES DOWN TO THIS:
DOING SWEET THINGS FOR THE PERSON YOU "LOVE" SENDS THE SAME KIND OF RUSH THROUGH YOUR SYSTEM THAT GETTING ONE UP ON SOMEONE YOU HATE DOES.
HATE AND "LOVE" ARE SIMPLY TWO SIDES OF THE SAME COIN.

Sometimes there are rules we can't allow ourselves to break, or a line we can't cross. Following a passion once will lead to doing so again, and each one becomes easier to allow than the last. You are taught that all passions are equal, whereas we are taught that some are more acceptable than others.

BUT WHY NOT?
WHAT'S THE HARM IN CROSSING OVER SOME OF THESE METAPHORICAL LINES.
FROM WHAT I'VE OBSERVED, MOST OF THE TIME IT JUST MEANS BEING OSTRACIZED BY THE POPULACE
IT'S NOT A LIFE OR DEATH SCENARIO.

There's usually harm beyond that. If not to yourself, than to others.

EXAMPLES WOULD BE REALLY NICE
ALL THE VAGUENESS AND GENERALIZATIONS DO NOT HELP WHEN SOMEONE'S FROM A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT MINDSET.

Let's say it's anger. Wrath. Is it worth yelling at someone you're angry with, if it might hurt their feelings?

IF YELLING HURTS THEIR FEELINGS WHEN THE ANGER IS JUSTIFIABLE AND GENUINE, THEN THE OBVIOUS SOLUTION IS TO GET THICKER SKIN.
EITHER THAT OR IT CAN BE TAKEN AS A BLACK SOLICITATION.

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